Meeting the Dr Scaife

I failed a first date.

1- I don't feel much of his affection.

2 - No body touch.

3 - No good bye kiss.

so that night, I even had this werid dream

the guy who I'm dating with stole my money and said: do you really think i will date you??

I feel I want to get people's validation so badly and if they don't like me, It's because I'm not good enough.

I can never be good enough, Physically. I will look exactly the same (Asian, average look, small, skinny)

I will only become worse and worse for sure with time. ⇒ less and less people will find me attractive. And I don't want to die alone.

I feel like I'm going to this dead end. No ways out

Is dating giving me too many negtivites. should I stop?

(Dating is hard for anyone. You are asian, of cause it’s a bit more difficult for you. acknowledge this and normalize this. Again, self compassion is the KEY. Dating is about seeking for validation and it’s fine)

Re. Liam. 3 dates. went really well. I told him that I'm looking for something serious and he said him too

He is HIV positive but non-detectable. so it's safe

He was not happy with the fact that I didn't do any test after having multiple sexual partners (It is too much info? ) I so I did the test, I told him everything is fine. We had a very short discussion and I said have a good weekend and we stoped texting each other... Should I talk with him again? Should I ask him out and ask for certification.

I hope there are no misunderstanding?

(again, it’s a self protection mechanism. Maybe you need to change the strategy and see how it goes? 2 people fiting each other can be tough and you need to acknowledge this)

I know this is wrong but I think couple life is better then being single. I think I'm spending too much time chatting with guys on Apps ( Yes! mutple Apps) harassing my friends for relationship advices and all those shits are time consuming! I want be emotionally stable. I don't want to feel like this, constantly. It's not good for my mental health!! (normalise things, regconise the bad emotions, lable them, and don’t push it away)

we all suffer, and it’s because we are human, not because it’s YOU!