与好友的对话
Not bad. I went to my uncle’s and played with my nephew for a while.He’s so cute! How can a 5 years old boy be so cute! I’m so obsessed with an unconditional trust with a whole heart. That’s how relationships between people amazing I think. When people are children they are innocent and naive but could touch others’ heart without intention. I missed my childhood when I was happy without purposeful defense. That’s what I feel today. It’s really good to have an interaction with kids. They’re so lovely which makes me feel the whole world’s lovely too.
Wow, that sounds great! Running and playing piano! I have never played piano before.Hope to learn it someday in the future. Any kind of art can calm down oneself and pure one’s spirit.Enjoying the moment alone with music itself is ethereal , serene and self-conscious.
Resting at home that’s relaxing and a moment for oneself. But I always realize that the as social media and artificial intelligence are advancing people are lost in electronic products and technology is controlling people’s life like what the Black Mirror performed. I hate losing myself in the Internet but I always fall into deep loneliness that I couldn’t help being indulged in the social media to see what other people do everyday. I don’t really care about it but loneliness forces me to keep the trace of the information about others. To be honest, social media makes me more lonely than without it. But I have lost my best friends within a hurtful story so I’m around no friends anymore. The situation makes me afraid of being lonely but there’s no better way to not be lonely. So I’m paradoxical now. That’s why I feel a kid’s like an angel and could save me a little while.
Maybe I’m just a person who is struggling to not be that lonely and to keep balance between study and spare time. So I’m yearning for everything free and energetic, full of sense of human.
Yeah, I haven’t had a boyfriend and haven’t dated anyone. Because I don’t know how. Maybe I’m just so familiar with a form of friendship and have a strong faith in friendship that a good friendship could last forever and save me when I’m going through tough time. But now it proves that nothing could last forever even the best person you put all heart to and unbelievable trust in. Also when I’m in trouble no one could save me or even just help me cause everyone’s so busy in earning life that they even couldn’t make it so who else they could care about?I guess I’m stuck in the comfortable zone where I’m so accustomed to being with myself and the only two best friends.Or I’m too scared of being hurt and try my best to avoid it.
Thank you to say that. The situation makes it impossible now cause I’m preparing for an exam to be admitted in a dreamed university to gain master’s degree. So I often feel exhausted and extremely lonely. But I have no choice because I’m soberly knowing that it’s the cost of pursuing dream. I’m in my hometown now where’s small and quiet to study all the time. I know that’s the core of my problem. In here I’m so different from people who already settled down and only seek for stability while I seek for adventure and freedom. I think I’m too unique to settle down here and nobody notices me here which makes me more lonely. I think maybe I’m too infatuated with thinking to meet someone who can accept what are spinning in my head.
Nowadays the bad news are showing up all the time which makes me disappointed , downhearted as well as worried much. The bad things happen all the time and people in the atmosphere are anxious and impose themselves more and more competitive but competition is not ending anyway so all they strive to do seems meaningless. I’m wondering what you would do to face with the meaninglessness of life?
To be honest , losing friends especially who was sincere and even save my life is badly hurt. I don’t want to lose anyone deserving but they turn to be really mean to me and despise me which I really can’t admit and accept. I don’t know why I have stranded this kind of scorn which made me lose my dignity for such a long time just because I don’t want to lose them and pretend them to be the same ones they were. Losing dignity makes me collapse and hate myself whom I never had hated before. Fortunately I decided to survive and restore myself from whatever I have suffered. But it makes me losing hope of friendship and of trust for people and makes me cautious of any kind of relationship with other people.How to rebuild the faith in human being?
And I’m wondering if youngsters in Europe have to rely on themselves without any help after being adults? I heard that and curious about it cause in my hometown youngsters have to be supported by parents to earn their life and balance their own family as they have to have their parents take care of their children cause they have no time to take care of family especially under super pressure. Correspondingly , parents have more power to them and even some parents are controlling their kids in all kinds of aspects.
I’m curious that if youngsters in Europe often have revelry and all kinds of parties to do anything at it? They seem extraordinarily free in movies and TV series which is beyond my imagination.but I do desire to get free, not like them but just a little freedom to do something I really want from deep heart and don’t have to compromise anymore.
The world seems to get worse but it’s still worth to be hopeful. What’s your expectation for the future of human?
