关于《海上钢琴师》的所想

前天晚上被锁在外面了，又不想打搅别人，于是在外面硬熬到了五点多，用手机看完了《海上钢琴师》，所幸他们之中还是有人早起的，六点多之后就在自己的床上看到结束。而关于手机的电，这或许又涉及其他了，暂且不写吧。

其实现在看的电影大多都是以前听到过名字但没有看过，或是印象中看过但已经淡忘而想再看的，我浅薄的觉得现在的很多商业片、青春片看上去更多的是消遣自己的情感或时间，并不能引人思考或印象深刻，或许只是自己不受用吧。《海上钢琴师》属于我见过名字以及一段台词但没看过的，大概是在高三，也可能是在高二的时候，我出于把自己的英语发展为兴趣而从某个软件上抄下了一段它的台词，每当觉得早读课枯燥乏味时就拿出来读。说来惭愧，我也只是抄下了仅仅那一段台词以及几首诗便匆匆作罢，但是我却一直不能忘却那一段台词里的淡淡悲伤以及坚定。那是剧末Ninteen Hundred对曾擅长Jazz风格小号演奏者的一段对话：

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——All that city you just couldn't see an end to it.The end? Please? Can you please just show me where it ends? It was all very final on that gangway and I was grant too in my over coat. I cut quite a figure, and I was getting off, guaranteed. That wasn't the problem.It wasn't what I saw that stopped me, Max, it was what I didn't see. Do you understand that? What I didn't see. In all that sprawling city, there was everything except an end. There was no end. What I did not see was where the whole thing came to an end, the end of the world.

——Take a piano, hmm? The keys begin, the keys end. You know there are 88 of them. Nobody can tell you any different. They are not infinite.You are infinite. And on those keys, the music that you can make is infinite. I like that. That I can live by.

——You get me up on that gangway and you rill out in front of me a keyboard of millions of keys, Millions and billions of keys that never end. That's the truth, Max, they never end. That keyboard is infinite. And if that keyboard is infinite, then on that keyboard there is no music you can play. You are sitting on the wrong bench. That's God's piano.

—— Christ! Did you see the streets? Just the street-----there were thousands of them. How do you do it down there? How do you choose just one? One woman, one house, one piece of land to call your own, one landscape to look at, one way to die. All that world just weighing down on you. You don't even know where it comes to an end. Aren't you ever just scared of breaking apart at the thought of it? The enormity of it.

——I was born on this ship, and the world passed me by. But 2000 people at a time, and there were wishes here.But never more than fit between prow and stern. You played put your happiness, but on a piano that was not infinite! I learned to live that way. Land?Land is a ship too big for me. It's a woman too beautiful, it's avoyage too long, a perfume too strong, it's music I don't know how to make.I can never get off this ship. I'm blessed I can step off my life. After all, I don't exist for anyone. You are the exception, Max. You are the only one who knows I'm here. You are a minority, and you'd better get used of it.

——Forgive me, my friend, but I'm not getting off.

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其实第一次读一直觉得它们很沉重，就像一个不被理解的人，在自己的世界里生活了一生，然后安静的离开。可是为什么我会感到很沉的悲伤，就像那个擅长演奏小号的演奏者，难道是因为他的才华、天赋异禀不再为世人所知，难道是故友即将离开，而感到厚重的悲伤？我听说一个人曾为了见到自己喜欢的女孩走很远很远的路，仅仅是看到女孩的笑容，便满足的离开，同样令人感到美好。Ninteen Hundred怀着对音乐——一件挚爱之物，以最纯粹的情感走过了自己的一生，我们之中很少可以做到。孤独吗？我没有感觉到孤独，只是被他的真诚与坚定所震撼，而由衷的敬佩，对比自己渺小的世界，对比现在嘈杂的城市……

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我想每个人都在自己的生命里窥见过美好的东西，只是短暂的，转瞬即逝，只是随着年岁渐长，渐渐淡忘了，但它却深深的刻在了某个角落。他让我满含热泪地回想起，曾经的感动。

我属于那道阴霾的海岸，除了那片金黄的沙滩，我不知道我还能去哪里。