A Wealthy, Minimalistic Life that is Full of Relaxation

Dear all,

It has been a really really long three weeks since I last wrote anything love or emotionally related, because I was burnt out, sad, emotionally and physically and mentally overwhelmed, whereas I am full of relaxation and peace of mind as of now.

The foremost important thing in life is to be alone. Aloneness is overrated in ways that it shouldn't be, and highly valued in ways it shouldn't be. Aloneness should be a choice, a luxury, an object of simplification, and a choice of vacation, of relaxation of mind, and of organization, aloneness is overrated and yet undervalued to the largest extent possible. I loath aloneness, yet I need it for my peace of mind.

I loathe aloneness in that I deserve company in ways I shouldn't be.

I loathe alonenss in that it carves me into someone that I am not.

I love aloneness because of the pure joy and simplicity

I love aloneness purely of the solicitude

I chose aloneness for fear of overdependence and the reason that I am forced into it

I want to choose aloneness, not being forced into it, I want to have a wealth of choices and yet still chooses aloneness, that in itself shows immense emotional maturity from myself yet I have not seen

I want to choose you over anything else all the time, but I have failed to do so, I want to carve out a space just for you and me to be alone, in this beautiful sunset and sun rise, and just to be alone and have peace of mind, yet I have failed to do so, I have failed to be faithful to myself, my needs, my dreams, my aspirations, and myself and everything I stand for, I ahve failed and that's why I kept losing my self and my hair. I lost my aloneness, my solicitude, the things I value the most, and continue to undervalue and put it on my feet and on the ground.

I am sorry, my solitude, my aloneness, I want to choose you over the bright moons and santuries and pure magical stars, I am sorrym, my solitude. I am sorry my love, but I must choose you over all things else because that's how I show myself to you, yet losing everything else that I proudly call my own.

Such love is call madness, the sheer madness of love. The desire for burning campanionship and the desire for all of the world around us

I love you, my dearest Magnus