a little sadness

  I'm feeling a little pity now ,for in the past two and half years, I have been always waiting for an unrealistic state. However, I don't regret . Because what drived me to struggle with so much wasted effort is a kind of stubborn idea stimulated by my parents and the society.It must be kept in mind that my focus on the outside has to be limited to 1% of my mind. So far, my knowledge on my major has been very limited. Therefore, I have to let every bit of those seemingly fantacy but unrealistic dream go.Knowlege must come first. It is not for my future job that I emphasize the importance of knowledge. It is for myself who endevour to find the real me.Knowledge is the basis of my life and my confidence. I don't want to compare with others. Just for myself, I want to seize every minute to learn.