感受

这里一个人的感受不重要，甚至不存在。互相不把互相当人看是常态。

I'm just really really confused right now. Angry, mostly, I thought. But I'm also just all confused. How can people be like this? How can people live like this? Shut yourself off, follow orders and duties, stay in boxes constructed by people long dead. I don't get how people can live like this. I mean, theoretically, I get it, but then when it comes to reality it's just a constant just-missed focus, and scary things lurk just out of the depth of focus, always disorientation regardless of how many times I orient myself. Minimal understanding all around. I wanna go home.