time to wake up

wake up ，
welcome to the real world,
you gonna love it .
what Monica said is the truth. I know most of things in my life suck, but I still want to struggle for the while, it is not suitable for quit at this time. when I totally decide to give up, I will tell thou.I deeply believe that all the peaful and subtle work shine one day. now what is the big deal, no cancer, no hungry, no limit, I can't wait to fuck the intricate life. hello, there.
Honestly, I realize that my time is limited, though I don't want to face it, I have to confess, what I have done these days is a mess.something to me is ok, but it is not same to family and the competitive side of me. mom is trying her best to protect me, to make me feel good, my old friends all wake up and input 8times time than me to invest their future...I m so lucky to get half of my desire, but when everyone is moving, staying will kill me. i recalled socrates saying that, the unexamined life is not worth living, and decided maybe its time to examine mine. without further ado, let me do it.
YOU have to learn
to become a mature creature,
 a real grown woman,
don't not look back,
don't miss him at night,
 you should know ,
not all the fish live in a same area of sea.
god bless you
my forever lonely fish .