nothing

I feel more tired than being alone.
I don't know how to express my feelings and drain the pain away.
I even don't know whether it's right or wrong.
It's just getting more far away from what I wanted.
I don't know how to change this situation and how to communicate.
What I can do now is question myself ceaselessly and getting angry and getting confused.
I hate this.
I don't like myself now.