Normal,Grouchy,Hopeful

It was really upset in the afternoon,I felt so hopeless because I don't what should I do.I watched the TVC on the internet.Suddenly I felt I am a animal who was lost in the human world.I don't know how to do and I don't know whether it works.It's not because I didn't get the calling from the goddamn company I don't want to join in at all.But I don't know how to do next.Enter AD or not? It's a really tough choice I have to make.But I try my best,though it's another resultless thinking.But no matter what,now I calm down.It's not the problem I give up AD，I didn't like it,some bullshit guys who are full of themselves.I don't give a shit about it.But I know,I like unique things,I like creativity,I like writing,But I hate interview,I hate CV，I hate to do something so boring or corny.So,join in ?or leave.I know,the problem is that what I would so when I leave AD.What can I do，establish a company?I did't have money.And now I am a student in debt.Anyway,I will figure something out.There are two load in front of me.I didn't have enough courage to choose one and go ahead.So I stand there dully like a fool.So ?think about it tomorrow.I am bound to figure it out,come the fuck on!!