and all them Stark kids went missing or dead thereafter

我有时间（春假），有病，于是重读冰与火之歌。还深度挖掘了r/asoiaf社区。有个redditor说，自第六本原定出版日期以来，他已经上了法学院，当了律师，结了婚搬了家生了两个孩子，还是没有等来。好在我只是2018年才开始看（当时担心ASOIAF情节太吸引人影响我高考。考前我只敢读了魔戒，我还让我妈拿着首本GOT来最后一门的考场接我）；但是重新看到那些章节的一刻，我就意识到这就是自残行为。那个夏天我在空调十足的北京地铁上狂看这系列，而我西语课的同桌前五本都读完过，我们疯狂讨论，直到结课他走在我前面，背对我两只手指tap脑袋作告别敬礼，再也没有回头。We never even got to know each other's real names cuz he was "Fabio" and I was "Gloria" to him. Fxxking Spanish class, remember? I was never Gloria to anyone else. Not before not after. The one-off name. The one-off summer. I was never again as slim, as happy, knowing as little about how little I knew. 好多人都说重读GOT最前面几章，Stark一家齐全，恍如隔世，其实想象读GOT最前面几章时的那个我，也恍如隔世，我那时也很齐全。我现在填写毕业典礼要被叫的名字都不知道该写什么。Not Gloria obviously. 金角大王银角大王要斗孙悟空时，用那个紫金葫芦、玉净瓶，喊一声名字如果应了就会被收进去化为脓水。Does a preferred name count? Or has it to match your driver's license? Does the whitewashed anglo-saxon evangelical name that u got urself after mispronunciation got boring count? What about the name you went by when you were 12? 6? Or until 3 years ago when someone died with it? Ur instagram handle? What the Starbucks guy knows you as? 每次在一个新城市，一张新床，好似有物将你叫醒，你知道该回答什么吗，你比当初面对幼儿园老师时更知道该回答什么吗。 去年夏天，去纽约前夜，我在睡袋里读完了Fire and Blood. 我只是不想时间继续。我知道后面有更多好事等着我（确实有），但小说写到这里还不够吗，只二十四年，好像已经断成九大章节，一千个POV，各不相认，一种粉碎性的人生。Gloria (2018) 也是遥远一章。有些书不可重读。有些事不可细想。有些问题不要回答——不要回答。Dost thou respond when Vessel callth thee 行者在底下掐着指头算了一算，道：“我真名字叫做孙行者，起的鬼名字叫做者行孙。真名字可以装得，鬼名字好道装不得。”却就忍不住，应了他一声。飕的被他吸进葫芦去，贴上帖儿，原来那宝贝，那管甚么名字真假，但绰个应的气儿，就装了去也

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