《达洛维夫人》之Miss Kilman和Clarissa Dalloway (104-111)

Miss Kilman (a Christian woman) 对Clarissa的不满&自己的自满

Miss Kilman was not going to make herself agreeable. She had always earned her living. Her knowledge of modern history was thorough in the extreme. She did, out of her meagre income, set aside so muc for causes she believe in; whereas this woman did nothihng, believed nothing; brought up her daughter--but here was Elizabeth, rather out of breath, the beautiful girl. (106)

Miss Kilman和Clarissa面对面的时候，身上加持的力量仿佛减弱了（根据后文推测，难道是因为Kilman在Clarissa面前自惭形秽？She did care how she looked.）

It was the flesh that she must control. Clarissa Dalloway had insulted her. That she expected. But she had not triumphed; she had not mastered the flesh. Ugly, clumsy, Clarissa Dalloway had laughed at her for being that; and had revived the fleshly desires, for she minded looking as she did beside Clarissa. Nor could she talk as she did. But why wish to resemble her? Why? She despised Mrs Dalloway from the bottom of her heart. She was not serious. She was not good. Her life was a tissue of vanity and deceit. Yet Doris Kilman had been overcome. She had, as a matter of fact, very nearly burst into tears when Clarissa Dalloway laughed at her. "It is the flesh, it is the flesh,"(Kilman本以为自己已经不再在乎自己的外貌，没想到又被Clarissa激发出来了)