拖着破碎了的自己，一点一点前行

Another depressing dream.

Walking in the University I'd been in, alone.

This is supposed to be a familiar place, yet no familiar faces, not even one. Nobody that I knew is here. I just walk & walk alone. Wish to contact old buddies & seek their company, but they are probably mostly inconvenient, always.

It is not a lot of fun going through university, instead of fledging, being in DEEPLY SHOCKED + TRAUMATIZED state, which unfortunately eventually deteriorated into cognitive decline kind of shit.

I think I understand a bit more about, why one of my MOST CHERISHED friends, left me, at that time - which has been some of the most painful issues of mine in yrs.

I should have consulted mental health expert back then.

This broken wreck got to get up & continue some little practice of his.

MUST NOT be consumed by depression again.

拖着破碎了的自己，一点一点前行。