200917

I still can't understand what the foreigner said on the meeting after practicing for a period of time / why indeed I am a little nervous but the key is I don't understand the meaning / I really want to know what they are saying / I konw I need to be more harder than before / but I can't give up reading books in Chinese / what should I do / it seems I am in a delima / it is me who let myself in this situation / one can hardly punish self / one can always find reasons for one's own mistakes / and one can hardly forgive others mistakes kindly / what a severe reality / you envy skills of others / but you don't make effort to obtain them / what a poor guy / the complicated personalities about human beings is really a difficult task to grasp / firstly start by learning about yourself / but exactly it's the most difficult step to go / anyway firstly keep your heart alive and positive / trying not to be passive towards everyone in the front of you / that maybe the priority currently /