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I recovered the enthusiasm of reading books / I totally commit myself to the book / I get more confused about the emotion of human being as I read more the book / actually they are the reflect of real people / all the description of the book are exactly what we do and think / there are a lot of negative words that maybe not willing to be admitted by real people / but they are so sharp and true / we originally are the combination of good and bad / we can not only neglect the bad sides of us and only focus on the good sides of us / progress can be made when I can bravely face straightly my bad sides / I want to say that do not avoid the bad sides and also do not necessarily represent them to others / it means that we should know the suitable time to show them up / the key is coming / we don't know when can we relieve ourselves even how can we do that / when and how are always complicated questions / we must response to most of things immediately without any time of thinking / whether we think the actions we did are coorect or not seems not that important / after all new situations are still there / so all the emotions are actually timely generated / they are valid at that time / it seems we finally reach the end that we just need to enjoy the moment / everything happened is like smoke that is disappeared after the blowing of wind / so what I have been confused about should be released now /