From Naomi, Skins 4

I've loved u from the first time I saw u,
I think I was 12,
It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to u,
and I was scared of the way I felt, u know,
that I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch,
just to make it feel normal.
I screwed guys to make it go away,but it didn't work.
When we got together,it scared the shit out of me,
because....u were the one person who could ruin my life.
I pushed u away and made u think things were ur fault,
but really I was just terrified of pain,
but.... I couldn't stand....
I didn't want to be a slave to the way I feel about u,
can u understand?
U were trying to punish me back,and it's horrible,
it's so horrible.... because....really....
I'd die for u.
I love u,
I love u so much it's killing me.