I was your starry-eyed lover and the one that you saw

Oh the last time I saw Paul
I was horrible and almost let him in
But I stopped and caught the wall
And my mouth got dry
so all I did was take him for a spin
Yeah we hopped inside my car
And I drove in circles round the freight train yard
And he turned the headlights off
Then he pulled the bottle out
Then he showed me what was love
I'll be your morning bright goodnight shadow
I'll be your record player baby if you know what I mean
I'll be your real tough cookie with the whiskey breath
I'll be a killer and a thriller and the cause of our death
In the blossom of the months
I was sure that I'd get driven off with thought
So I swallowed all of it
As I realized there was no one who could kiss away my shit
Paul, I know you said that you'd take me any way I came or went
But I'll push you from my brain
See, you're gentle baby
I couldn't stay, it only bring you pain
Paul
Big Thief