I hate you! And I love you!!
We fight like each other's lifetime foe. Yet, we still have strong feelings for each other. Don't deny it!
Or at least, I still love you with all my heart, or maybe with what is remain of my shattered heart. Yes,
shattered into hundreds of thousands of pieces, which I may need to spend my lifetime to restore,
and still leaves scars. But, hey, that's my love for you. If I could turn back time, I would still love you
again and again in my lifetime.
So, what is your lifetime? People can live, let's say, 80 years on average. That's 80*365=29200 days,
which you have already spent 1/4 of them. So, about 21900 days remaining. How are you going to
live that?? You know, each day, each hour, each minute, you are getting one step closer to death. And
please don't count on the after-life or "next 3 times" samsara, 'cuz you may just vanish into
nothingness for eternity, like never been there before. Scary, but true.
So for the 21900 remaining days, you decided to live what you SHOULD do and with the "best" you
SHOULD be? But not to live what you WANT and with whom you LOVE?! That's just simply sad.
You will pretend to be the best and cage everything else inside, including this "little devil", for the rest
of your life?? That's simply not you, not whole you. Just the role you play. It's freaking sad.
And when the last day comes, will you feel you spend a fulfilling lifetime?? Not somhow lacking?? You
know, after death, you will be forgotten no matter what you do. And the only thing that matters is the
course you take, and in that you LOVE somebody with all your heart and soul, and spend a lifetime
with him (or her if you're a lala). LOVE shoud be the only thing you consider now, nothing else.
In this lifetime, you've had and will have to bend over for far too many things. But, my dear, it should not
be love.
(Third day after her decision...)
I hate you but I still love you....
Or at least, I still love you with all my heart, or maybe with what is remain of my shattered heart. Yes,
shattered into hundreds of thousands of pieces, which I may need to spend my lifetime to restore,
and still leaves scars. But, hey, that's my love for you. If I could turn back time, I would still love you
again and again in my lifetime.
So, what is your lifetime? People can live, let's say, 80 years on average. That's 80*365=29200 days,
which you have already spent 1/4 of them. So, about 21900 days remaining. How are you going to
live that?? You know, each day, each hour, each minute, you are getting one step closer to death. And
please don't count on the after-life or "next 3 times" samsara, 'cuz you may just vanish into
nothingness for eternity, like never been there before. Scary, but true.
So for the 21900 remaining days, you decided to live what you SHOULD do and with the "best" you
SHOULD be? But not to live what you WANT and with whom you LOVE?! That's just simply sad.
You will pretend to be the best and cage everything else inside, including this "little devil", for the rest
of your life?? That's simply not you, not whole you. Just the role you play. It's freaking sad.
And when the last day comes, will you feel you spend a fulfilling lifetime?? Not somhow lacking?? You
know, after death, you will be forgotten no matter what you do. And the only thing that matters is the
course you take, and in that you LOVE somebody with all your heart and soul, and spend a lifetime
with him (or her if you're a lala). LOVE shoud be the only thing you consider now, nothing else.
In this lifetime, you've had and will have to bend over for far too many things. But, my dear, it should not
be love.
(Third day after her decision...)
I hate you but I still love you....
