luv sic

it's funny how you mess up my
tempo, rhythm, and groove
i feel unwilling to change them though
if things are against my proposal
they are:
unsettled emotions
tangling thoughts
unforeseen future
mysterious worlds
i mean:
colourful garden inside the door
outside the house there lies
a cat snipping his nails and
tail, after which another is chasing
on and on
puzzles and figures they say
never work out between the line
since it's always not me to decide
one note, two bars, three chapters,
maybe a quartet then, waiting
to perform the jumping harmony
unharmonised enough yet
for so many people are making their own music
for some it's noise you see
for some it's a love and hate thing
for some it's hello and goodbye, so
why don't you shut your mouth
keep silent and hark
how my heart sings
quietly, unconsciously
once,
and for real
xx
actually i'm so angry tonight
comparison and conflict is a sin
anytime, to anyone, for me
i like possibilities
in my way - tendency under my control
yet not you to choose the finest
each possibility is welcomed
and this takes time
and i lack patience
and i am lazy and lame at
dealing with familiar strangers
ah, noise noise noise
sizzling around asking for too much
i can smile no more, cause
tomorrow i can fly higher
and reach an apex for good