突然想起突然明白的

刚到医院时真是不理解人为什么会depression，在我幼稚的理解里留得青山在不怕没柴烧,即便听遍各式各样悲惨经历.最初100多人的trail进行到一半时,只剩下20来个人,而大家都知道最后仅10个左右能last下来,bipolar还好,unipolar dreadfully hard, 真是很努力给他们最大帮助依然无济于事,apparently, it is harder for some ppl as they can be hurt real bad and simply stopped their tracks. and i couldn't understand any of it at that time. the truth is not good or bad, it's just the truth itself, just as they are who they are, free from what we want them to be even we tried so desperately to help them. my conclusion is, life is hard, and it's harder being just who you are.
今晚不知道为什么突然想起这些事，心里有些难过。