Finally You're Gone
I'm sorry if I make it sounds like you're dead...
You were just engaged, on my birthday.
What else could I say? Well, only congratulations I guess.
I did say that, from the bottom of my heart. I could not have been happier, could I?
I wish you all good, you deserve that. You're such a sweat girl, adorable, intelligent, clear-minded. You know what you want and you hide your intention under the softest cover. You're 100% good, but, why I'm feeling so miserable about myself. Why I got this strong feeling of being a loser? It wasn't a surprise at all, but I felt it was like a strike right on my head. Everything has gone dark in my world.
I got cheered up by some friends at the birthday dinner. It was a delight night, everyone was cracking jokes and was so hilarious. I was laughing all the time, but I couldn't get you out of my mind. I couldn't stop laughing as if only one pause would make me cry right after.
What happened to me? It was a great joyful news, wasn't it? He is a good man, reliable and appropriate and you like him. I know I should just stretch my arms and hang a big smile on my face and be right next to you, support you whatever it concerns you. Yes, I'll. But, all my feelings are smashed up with each other now, I am just sitting there and my tears start dropping and flowing.
I am so sorry, I'll finally calm down and Let's be BF forever. Will that be too much if I ask, am I one of the special persons in your life? I won't ask, because I haven't prepared for the negative answer. Alright, I'm crying again.
I know so far birthday is not my favorite day and your messages have dragged down this feeling to a new level.
You were just engaged, on my birthday.
What else could I say? Well, only congratulations I guess.
I did say that, from the bottom of my heart. I could not have been happier, could I?
I wish you all good, you deserve that. You're such a sweat girl, adorable, intelligent, clear-minded. You know what you want and you hide your intention under the softest cover. You're 100% good, but, why I'm feeling so miserable about myself. Why I got this strong feeling of being a loser? It wasn't a surprise at all, but I felt it was like a strike right on my head. Everything has gone dark in my world.
I got cheered up by some friends at the birthday dinner. It was a delight night, everyone was cracking jokes and was so hilarious. I was laughing all the time, but I couldn't get you out of my mind. I couldn't stop laughing as if only one pause would make me cry right after.
What happened to me? It was a great joyful news, wasn't it? He is a good man, reliable and appropriate and you like him. I know I should just stretch my arms and hang a big smile on my face and be right next to you, support you whatever it concerns you. Yes, I'll. But, all my feelings are smashed up with each other now, I am just sitting there and my tears start dropping and flowing.
I am so sorry, I'll finally calm down and Let's be BF forever. Will that be too much if I ask, am I one of the special persons in your life? I won't ask, because I haven't prepared for the negative answer. Alright, I'm crying again.
I know so far birthday is not my favorite day and your messages have dragged down this feeling to a new level.
