bad dream
躯体四肢被用力摁住般的沉重，在浓重的黑暗里动弹不得，辨不清身形的人和不知数目的手掐住脖子。告诉自己这不是真实的感觉，是梦是幻觉，意识和意识在对抗，终于在挣扎中醒来。凌晨4点44，大约睡了20,30 分钟。打开kindle，停留处的下一段正是 “to the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead bay, the world itself is the bad dream” 开着灯，放着音乐，怔怔的，强迫的看了几页，告诉自己要继续睡去。
醒来的一天都不好了。haunted in the nightmare for the whole day as usual, desktop screen locked by the fucking FBI virus, and got to walk out of the door to drop the boxes, the inbound traffic jammed in the afternoon, and the to-do cleaning work. guess half of my brain is paralyzed, though functioned perfectly well. run into an acquaintance in the grocery, still so lost in my mind even we had some catch-up conversation. made the final decision to bring back half dozen beer. I can sense the moment is coming by. The bad moment, the shrilled moment.
想起来几日前，xx说我睡的时候有在发抖，还演了一遍。记不得，心一沉的觉得难道不是熟睡得像个婴孩么。
醒来的一天都不好了。haunted in the nightmare for the whole day as usual, desktop screen locked by the fucking FBI virus, and got to walk out of the door to drop the boxes, the inbound traffic jammed in the afternoon, and the to-do cleaning work. guess half of my brain is paralyzed, though functioned perfectly well. run into an acquaintance in the grocery, still so lost in my mind even we had some catch-up conversation. made the final decision to bring back half dozen beer. I can sense the moment is coming by. The bad moment, the shrilled moment.
想起来几日前，xx说我睡的时候有在发抖，还演了一遍。记不得，心一沉的觉得难道不是熟睡得像个婴孩么。
