Chapter 88
"When we are told something we have no way of knowing whether it is true or not, the only thing that can hurt you is what you believe in and feel. Don't punish yourself." —— Joel Hanson
"She's on bad terms with you right now, and she's spending Valentine's Day alone," said Damien.
Trevor could not help feeling morose over such an untimely occasion.
"And the fact that she has so many temptations near her doesn't help - it's the easiest time for some scoundrel to get into her good books."
Trevor nodded.
"Tell you what - I have an idea to turn the situation around. I could help you get earrings for Felicia, and we'll bluff to say you got them befor eyou left Beijing previously, and put them with me to pass to her on Valentine's Day knowing you can't be here. I'm sure she'll be touched!"
Trevor thought it brilliant, and the plan was set.
So, on Valentine's Day, Damien brought Felicia out on an all expenses paid (by Trevor) night consisting of dinner, movie, and dessert, and of course, a gift for Felicia which she was undoubtedly pleased.
Damien commented how selfless he was, sacrificing his Valentine's Day plans for the sake of a brother.
It had become common for Trevor to worry if Felicia was going out with or seeing some other guy (and accepting the fact that she often went out with any number of guy "friends" at this point), which he methodically dismissed.
It wasn't truly because he didn't mind, but rather, he know he could do nothing about it.
Mistrust and fear had begun to seep, though it didn't seem so to Trevor then.
And when these feelings begin to manifest, it becomes a perpetual landslide, leading to an avalanche in time to come - it is a slippery slope constantly eroding, much easier going down than it is going up. Things may yet be redeemed and trust rebuilt, but it is a long and tedious process at best.
We cannot help it, for we are, at the base of it all, emotional creatures, intense in trust and love, but also mistrust and hate alike. Trust is hard to gain, intense and bold when gained, and even harder to regain once lost - such is human nature.
And for Felicia, as had Ford ultimately mistrusted her, plainly so, she brought these fears (of being mistrusted) and feelings over to Trevor as well.
When we refuse to acknowlege the inevitability of fear itself, we succumb totally to the very thing we are afraid of - and act in the exact way to cause these fears to come true.
As in the case of Felicia, she began to act in ways which even she knew would cause mistrust, and began to mistrust Trevor despite his obvious and total devotion to her as well.
And when we direly want to prove ourselves right in something, we start to see (and draw, by the law of attraction, circumstances to further affirm them) everything as proof.
Felicia's fear was mistrust, and she was driving the wedge of mistrust between herself and Trevor ever deeper.
Trevor's fear was loss, and he was overdoing everything so much that he was losing Felicia.
And neither of them were aware.
"She's on bad terms with you right now, and she's spending Valentine's Day alone," said Damien.
Trevor could not help feeling morose over such an untimely occasion.
"And the fact that she has so many temptations near her doesn't help - it's the easiest time for some scoundrel to get into her good books."
Trevor nodded.
"Tell you what - I have an idea to turn the situation around. I could help you get earrings for Felicia, and we'll bluff to say you got them befor eyou left Beijing previously, and put them with me to pass to her on Valentine's Day knowing you can't be here. I'm sure she'll be touched!"
Trevor thought it brilliant, and the plan was set.
So, on Valentine's Day, Damien brought Felicia out on an all expenses paid (by Trevor) night consisting of dinner, movie, and dessert, and of course, a gift for Felicia which she was undoubtedly pleased.
Damien commented how selfless he was, sacrificing his Valentine's Day plans for the sake of a brother.
It had become common for Trevor to worry if Felicia was going out with or seeing some other guy (and accepting the fact that she often went out with any number of guy "friends" at this point), which he methodically dismissed.
It wasn't truly because he didn't mind, but rather, he know he could do nothing about it.
Mistrust and fear had begun to seep, though it didn't seem so to Trevor then.
And when these feelings begin to manifest, it becomes a perpetual landslide, leading to an avalanche in time to come - it is a slippery slope constantly eroding, much easier going down than it is going up. Things may yet be redeemed and trust rebuilt, but it is a long and tedious process at best.
We cannot help it, for we are, at the base of it all, emotional creatures, intense in trust and love, but also mistrust and hate alike. Trust is hard to gain, intense and bold when gained, and even harder to regain once lost - such is human nature.
And for Felicia, as had Ford ultimately mistrusted her, plainly so, she brought these fears (of being mistrusted) and feelings over to Trevor as well.
When we refuse to acknowlege the inevitability of fear itself, we succumb totally to the very thing we are afraid of - and act in the exact way to cause these fears to come true.
As in the case of Felicia, she began to act in ways which even she knew would cause mistrust, and began to mistrust Trevor despite his obvious and total devotion to her as well.
And when we direly want to prove ourselves right in something, we start to see (and draw, by the law of attraction, circumstances to further affirm them) everything as proof.
Felicia's fear was mistrust, and she was driving the wedge of mistrust between herself and Trevor ever deeper.
Trevor's fear was loss, and he was overdoing everything so much that he was losing Felicia.
And neither of them were aware.
