Husbands and Wives (1992)

 I had a romantic moment with Rain at her 21st birthday party and I could feel the old pull coming back.
The old attraction coming back. Feelings I'd had from my past. It was very vivid to me.
See, I've always had this penchant for what I call 'kamikaze women'. I call them kamikazes because you know they crash their plane they are self destructive, but they crash it into you, then you die along with them.
-That was a-- That was a great moment. I don't really think we should follow up on it.
-What do you--? What do you mean?
-Well, you know, I just.... If things were different--If I was younger, or if you were older...or anything different, but somehow...I just feel I know how this is gonna come out.
-You sure?
-I am. You know, I really am.
-I knew how it would end.
And I left and I walked out into the pouring rain. I just headed instinctively back to my apartment...because I wanted to hold Judy and kiss her and say things to her, and then I realized that, you know, I really blew it.
                
                
-So, what's your life like now?
-I'm out of the race for now. I don't want to get involved.
I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to get hurt.
I don't mind living by myself and working.
It's temporary.
I'll have the urge to get back into the swing of things.
That seems to be how it goes. I'm writing, I'm working on a new novel. Not the old one anymore, and, um...
-...it's fine. -Is it different?
-My novel? Yes, it's less confessional, more political.