Chapter 4
"If two people need to split something up, first person divides the two sides, second person chooses." —— Unknown
The Universe works in mysterious ways. There is religion and faith, and then there is destiny and fate. Good terms which actually symbolize deeper concepts at play. To Trevor, he was never much of a religious person (he did not understand the need for rituals), but instead he believed in destiny.
Trevor dedicated most of his life to his passion, living a persona in games which was strong, hardass, bold, and domineering, with a chivalrous and soft side for damsels in distress. He was so immersed in his online persona that real life became detached for him. He was unconcerned about his appearance and dressing, and similiarly uncaring about his social circle. He was all right with a very limited group of friends in real life, for he saw a larger world of friends in games, friends whom conveniently had the same interests with him.
The virtual world was his comfort zone.
The virtual world was a mask for Trevor, one which would have him never truly reconciling the two sides of himself (virtual, and in reality). And hence it was so when he met his online date in real life, he was still the same as he had been before - a combination of outbursts, immaturity, tears, and too much games. The result was months of drawn out heartbreak, one which sent him reeling with the aftereffects like a bad taste in his mouth. Except it was an ache, which developed into irrational fear unconsiciously for Trevor, as he went into military service for the next few years.
Trevor had the time to mature and search within himself while in the military for the definition of who he truly was; when he finally stepped out of military and into the society, Trevor felt he was ready to take on the challenges of the real world.
His self confidence expanded; he spruced up his image with a new haircut, a new dress code, and took on a whole new code of behavior, breaking away from all assimilance to the person he once was.
The first rainbow in Trevor's life had surfaced.
The Universe works in mysterious ways. There is religion and faith, and then there is destiny and fate. Good terms which actually symbolize deeper concepts at play. To Trevor, he was never much of a religious person (he did not understand the need for rituals), but instead he believed in destiny.
Trevor dedicated most of his life to his passion, living a persona in games which was strong, hardass, bold, and domineering, with a chivalrous and soft side for damsels in distress. He was so immersed in his online persona that real life became detached for him. He was unconcerned about his appearance and dressing, and similiarly uncaring about his social circle. He was all right with a very limited group of friends in real life, for he saw a larger world of friends in games, friends whom conveniently had the same interests with him.
The virtual world was his comfort zone.
The virtual world was a mask for Trevor, one which would have him never truly reconciling the two sides of himself (virtual, and in reality). And hence it was so when he met his online date in real life, he was still the same as he had been before - a combination of outbursts, immaturity, tears, and too much games. The result was months of drawn out heartbreak, one which sent him reeling with the aftereffects like a bad taste in his mouth. Except it was an ache, which developed into irrational fear unconsiciously for Trevor, as he went into military service for the next few years.
Trevor had the time to mature and search within himself while in the military for the definition of who he truly was; when he finally stepped out of military and into the society, Trevor felt he was ready to take on the challenges of the real world.
His self confidence expanded; he spruced up his image with a new haircut, a new dress code, and took on a whole new code of behavior, breaking away from all assimilance to the person he once was.
The first rainbow in Trevor's life had surfaced.
