CONTROL,SHE'S OUT OF CONTROL.
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My heart leaps up when I behold
A rainbow in the sky
So it was my life began
So it is now why I am a man
So it be when I shall grow old
Or let me die
The child is a father of a man
And I could wish my days to be
Bound each to each by natural piety
-------------------Wordsworth
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Ian?
Let me in, love.
Just want to talk.
You're mine. Irretrievably.
I'm a little scared.
Scared of falling in love with you.
This has to be for good.
I'm sorry.
I owe you everything, I love you.
What does that mean?
I've never felt this way before.
So it was my life began.
I don't deserve this.
So is it now I am a man.
I didn't do enough.
So it be and I shall grow old.
I should try it harder.
Or let me die.
And I could wish my days to be.
Bound each to each.
By natural...
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Dear Annik,
I know I'm intruding on your life, not you on mine. I felt if things were becoming a little bit clearer earlier on, but can not see everything falling to pieces before my eyes. I'm paying dearly for past mistakes. I never realised how one mistake in my life, some four or five years ago would make me feel how I do. I struggle between what I know is right in my mind, and some warped truthfulness as seen through other people's eyes. Who have no heart, and can't see the difference anyway.
IS EVERYTHING SO WORTHLESS IN THE END?
IS THERE ANYMORE?
WHAT LIES BEYOND?
WHAT IS LEFT TO CARRY ON?
It's a lie to say" I AM NOT AFRAID ANY MORE."
I thought I have to tell you something, even though it might change your feelings for me. I've been thinking of you constantly,trying to rationalise our situation, thinking of the things we've done. Images and thoughts prey on my mind, before my eyes all times of the day and night. And while some things are beyond my understanding, I know that I love you and will do forever. Until I see you again, I miss you with all my heart, all my love...
IAN
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IAN CURTIS DIED MAY 18,1980. HE WAS 23 YEARS OLD.
