meaning

if i can't find it here, maybe i can't find it anywhere.
maybe it's just an illusion without substantial foundation.
maybe it's just an unrealistic dream, indicating i'm not mature enough to withhold the weight.
the weight of life is serious.
the weight of illusion is humorous.
the nature of me told me to be free, and the wiseman inside me told me to be responsible.
i got twisted, and lost.
maybe, that's the real taste of life.
and when i got puzzled at it, i came across with the truth.