What the fu ck is wrong with me?

 
  Being busy for so long a time, I got a day break. But it is not fun to wake up in the afternoon without a person in the dormitory. In the last month, I tried to keep myself busy to force myself to forget the accidental eudaemonia, however when I woke up everyday, the first person comes to my mind is still you. In the evening, I cannot help looking at your lab to see whether the light is still on.
  I still remember the first sight I saw you, I was hit by you, but I am too shy to tell you the three words. You have already been living in my mind for 9 months, I still cannot open my month, and time has made you lighter and lighter in my heart. Untill you texted me to couch you about the coming English exam on May 6th, the flame started to burn again, being together in the library for about one week for my preparation for mathematical statistics and your English, I finally told you that I am in love with you, although I saw something which I shouldn’t saw that thirsday night. You told me that you are so odd that I should think carefully about the relationship. After my mathematical statistics exam, I told you that I accepted all your conditions without any request and since then we were together, but at that time I did not feel my heart beating faster, I just had a sence of being relieved. That night we walked around for about 3 hours, and before we aparted I asked something I saw the thirsday, you told me that was just something, and I trust you. The next day you asked to break up with me, for you felt great responsibility that you cannot burden in this relationship. It is just about 23 hours.
  You told me time will cure everything, 4 weeks has passed you are still in the deep of my heart.