心情不好，不需要解釋
もう本当に憂鬱は今！！
つうか、もう喋ること自体がしんどい！ハンナも転校するのでしょう、これじゃ七時間目に癒してくれる人もいなくなる。何で災厄なこと。自分の何が好きなの？？このまま死ぬこともできないし....きみえちゃん嫌なんだけど、少なくてもかわいいから、何とか許せるやし。うちは顔不細工やし、性格も普通！思春期なんか、何でこんなに悩まなかんの？
i stressed out! my-whatever-fucking-pride is killing me. this year is totally wasted. how can i say i had a great time!!? how could i lie to my mom i got through all this craps!!? see, in school, i try to hide all my emotions, be perfect,and be friendly. at home, my freaking sister-in-law and her baby are so annoying. i can't get rest. i mean there is no one actually understand how stressful i am! they don't understand, so they treat all this like nothing! nothing at all! like i am just a childish teenager get mad easily.
i even can't go out now. there are some weired people in the neighborhood follow me all the times.
我知道我沒有問題。可以輕易的告訴那些人，我ok，就算把所有的事情都告訴他們，他們也不會感到失望。但事情沒有那麽簡單，這是我一個人的事情，我自己逃脫不了，我自己不能忍受就這麽一點點成果。和那些同期的人相比，我現在真的很糟糕，很糟糕。當然我可以告訴自己，我不是最糟糕的那個，可是！！這難道就是我只能做的事情麽...
...李孬孬，這事情都到這個地步了。你tmd還有什麽放不開的，裝處女裝得自己都受不了了，就什麽都扔掉了好了，放馬拼了。你說你不是有問題是什麽，就沒看見你中文日文有問題，你不是給我製造痛苦的麽。你說你在家也好好的，怎麽就不能....
this is the only thing i hate to talk about so far. you know you are not nerd. you kind of hang out with them, and be nice to them, don't mean anything!! i hate you care about you fucking pride. anyway, i am tired. listen, just be yourself. that's all. be the one you always are.
i hate her so much!! be with the little ones are made me exhausted. and what's the matter? since they speak Spanish all the time. why i can't speak chinese or japanese at home.
hanna is gonna go to the high school around her house next monday. her mom is ridicules. only 25 school days left!!why can't she just wait for a month less? hanna may be not my best friend, but she was the people helped me out when i was in the worst situation. no one cared, you know, my part of body might just died.
the reason i left becasue i felt like everything slowed down,i need change. well, now i knew, the worst thing is not that. it is you are seeing yourself dying a part and can't help, even you have the solution. then you hate yourself. so far i know i am not good enough to handle more than this. it's too much.
爛桃花！！最近也不知道怎麽倒黴了，老是有人莫名其妙....每次看到自己的臉就覺得噁心。有時候真得很想吐。明天繼續生活，繼續這樣。你還能麽！！？這樣漠視...有點良心就抛棄所謂的pride吧！！做人瀟灑一點，也不會以後後悔！！
このままの自分許せないよ。牙，我真的好失敗。爲什麽要給自己和老媽添那麽多亂子，爲什麽不可以做到最好的呢。爲什麽！！1年，我知道你成長很多。可是呢，你不覺得這樣和浪費時間差不了多少麽！！你到底追求什麽，到底如何努力，到底你自己還是不清楚。我真得沒什麽可以驕傲的啦...連一無所有都做不到。爲什麽你總是夢想那麽大，拖累我...或者說，爲什麽你總是那麽懶惰，拖累我............需要一個地方，可以哭。痛苦啊，連哭都不可以隨心所欲。
つうか、もう喋ること自体がしんどい！ハンナも転校するのでしょう、これじゃ七時間目に癒してくれる人もいなくなる。何で災厄なこと。自分の何が好きなの？？このまま死ぬこともできないし....きみえちゃん嫌なんだけど、少なくてもかわいいから、何とか許せるやし。うちは顔不細工やし、性格も普通！思春期なんか、何でこんなに悩まなかんの？
i stressed out! my-whatever-fucking-pride is killing me. this year is totally wasted. how can i say i had a great time!!? how could i lie to my mom i got through all this craps!!? see, in school, i try to hide all my emotions, be perfect,and be friendly. at home, my freaking sister-in-law and her baby are so annoying. i can't get rest. i mean there is no one actually understand how stressful i am! they don't understand, so they treat all this like nothing! nothing at all! like i am just a childish teenager get mad easily.
i even can't go out now. there are some weired people in the neighborhood follow me all the times.
我知道我沒有問題。可以輕易的告訴那些人，我ok，就算把所有的事情都告訴他們，他們也不會感到失望。但事情沒有那麽簡單，這是我一個人的事情，我自己逃脫不了，我自己不能忍受就這麽一點點成果。和那些同期的人相比，我現在真的很糟糕，很糟糕。當然我可以告訴自己，我不是最糟糕的那個，可是！！這難道就是我只能做的事情麽...
...李孬孬，這事情都到這個地步了。你tmd還有什麽放不開的，裝處女裝得自己都受不了了，就什麽都扔掉了好了，放馬拼了。你說你不是有問題是什麽，就沒看見你中文日文有問題，你不是給我製造痛苦的麽。你說你在家也好好的，怎麽就不能....
this is the only thing i hate to talk about so far. you know you are not nerd. you kind of hang out with them, and be nice to them, don't mean anything!! i hate you care about you fucking pride. anyway, i am tired. listen, just be yourself. that's all. be the one you always are.
i hate her so much!! be with the little ones are made me exhausted. and what's the matter? since they speak Spanish all the time. why i can't speak chinese or japanese at home.
hanna is gonna go to the high school around her house next monday. her mom is ridicules. only 25 school days left!!why can't she just wait for a month less? hanna may be not my best friend, but she was the people helped me out when i was in the worst situation. no one cared, you know, my part of body might just died.
the reason i left becasue i felt like everything slowed down,i need change. well, now i knew, the worst thing is not that. it is you are seeing yourself dying a part and can't help, even you have the solution. then you hate yourself. so far i know i am not good enough to handle more than this. it's too much.
爛桃花！！最近也不知道怎麽倒黴了，老是有人莫名其妙....每次看到自己的臉就覺得噁心。有時候真得很想吐。明天繼續生活，繼續這樣。你還能麽！！？這樣漠視...有點良心就抛棄所謂的pride吧！！做人瀟灑一點，也不會以後後悔！！
このままの自分許せないよ。牙，我真的好失敗。爲什麽要給自己和老媽添那麽多亂子，爲什麽不可以做到最好的呢。爲什麽！！1年，我知道你成長很多。可是呢，你不覺得這樣和浪費時間差不了多少麽！！你到底追求什麽，到底如何努力，到底你自己還是不清楚。我真得沒什麽可以驕傲的啦...連一無所有都做不到。爲什麽你總是夢想那麽大，拖累我...或者說，爲什麽你總是那麽懶惰，拖累我............需要一個地方，可以哭。痛苦啊，連哭都不可以隨心所欲。
