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People always lie to themselves to stay happy.
I suddenly realise the importance of loyalty that people have to have in their lifes and that is the real secret of happiness.
most of the time, people are dreaming about what their life will be in the future, and that delusions or hopes brings instant happiness for them, but the everyday life of realism breakdowns makes people suffer.
I'd love to show a story about how people find out this real happiness by becoming true to themselves. Like sometimes people have to choose over things they dont like or for whatever reasons, things end up good ways as they might not suffering from losing things unimportant.
stay true to yourself is not easy, cause sometime you dont even know who you are or what you want. you have to ask these questions every morning when you get up and thats the reason makes your life happens.
Life itself is always hard and struggle and you need to find solutions for every questions everyday, like what can i get food to eat today, do i have the opportunity to succeed? or do i want to do this or that? is this the right way to do it? Or do i be capable of doing things that i want to?
Stay true is all about what u have to accept who you are no matter how people think or how society judge? you treat yourself all the best way when you are not good enough to meet the standard of others. you should know yourself deeper and deeper. you have to dig into your dignity, your soul and your heart.
Well, i changed a lot, i have a yesterday and a different tomorrow, what makes me changed in-between is the crucial part to present or to find out. So i ask myself what was my yesterday looking like, and what do i want to be tomorrow. but shamefully, i found myself just stayed same. that's the most terrible thing to face. but will i be happy if I really turned into another better person who takes me far away from my real identity? i dont know.
I guess i just want to be a better person and be more practical. so I'm writing this down and it will remind me of the moment i suffered from.