读书笔记--《eat,pray&love》

记得上一次看《eat,pray&love》是在罗马到佛罗伦萨的火车上，看着首页上自己歪斜的一行小字"I am in Italy now, eating naples pizza”，似乎还能忆起当时旅行中欢呼雀跃的心情。就像当初是带着三毛的梦飞向西班牙一样，我也是揣着Liz的情怀走过意大利；在西班牙，每个男人都可能是荷西，而在罗马，每个背影都像是Giovanni。记得去年决定去日本工作的时候曾给自己定了几个梦想，其中有一个便是去巴厘岛，找一个Ketut一样的大师为我卜上一卦 ，然后在海边简易的草房里住上一晚；另一个是每天晚上要像赤名莉香一样以百米冲刺的架势冲上床上，然后大叫一声“燕子，第一道”。这两个梦想或多或少都有些受Liz的影响，自己也试图像这个中年危机的女人一样环游世界，拥有大吃大喝的放纵，放手一博的冥想，和一段突如其来的爱情。可是谁料想，不知不觉，我最终却选择了一种截然相反的生活，在稳定的政府机关里工作，下班后做饭，遛狗，养花，看书。。。不知道这是不是冥冥中的一种宿命，我似乎全然忘却了这本书曾经给过我的诱惑；又或许是因为我终究是现实的，理性的左半脑最终说服了感性的如Liz般歇斯底里的右半脑。如今再次读这本书，似乎心中那只曾经蠢蠢欲动的小野兽堙没不见了，换之的是一种旁观者的心态，似乎在读一段尘封已久的往事，精彩与否，只会喝彩却再无波澜。 "I wish Giovanni would kiss me"，我记得正是从这第一个字符开始，我就喜欢上了这本书，喜欢这种美美的英文，无关痛痒的呻吟和华丽的调调。
 P7
 I wish Giovanni would kiss me. Oh, but there are so many reasons why this would be a terrible idea. To begin with, Giovanni is ten years younger than I am, and--like most Italian guys in their twenties--he still lives with his mother. These facts alone make him an unlikely romantic partner for me, given that I am a professional American woman in my mid-thirties, who has just come through a failed marriage and a devastating, interminable divorce, followed immediately by a passionate love affair that ended in sickening heartbreak. This loss upon loss has left me feeling sad and brittle and about seven thousand years old. Purely as a matter of principle I wouldn't inflict my sorry, busted-up old self on the lovely, unsullied Giovanni. Not to mention that I have finally arrived at that age where a woman starts to question whether the wisest way to get over the loss of one beautiful brown-eyed young man is indeed to promptly invite another one into her bed. This is why I have been alone for many months now. This is why, in fact, I have decided to spend this entire year in celibacy. To which the savvy observer might inquire:"Then why did you come to Italy?" To which I can only reply--especially when looking across the table at handsome Giovanni--"Excellent question."
 
P10
I am alone, I am all alone, I am completely alone.
Grasping this reality, I let go of my bag, drop to my knees and press my forehead against the floor. There, I offer up to the universe a fervent prayer of thanks.
First in English.
Then in Italian.
And then-just to get the point across-in Sanskrit.
P11
Having a baby is like getting a tatoo on your face.You really need to be certain it's what you want before you commit.
P22
In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding that they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place. But, oh, we had such a great time together during those early months when he was still my romantic hero and I was still his living dream. It was excitement and compatibility like I'd never imagined. We invented our own language. We went on day trips and road trips. We hiked to the top of things, swam to the bottom of other things, planned the journeys across the world we would take together. We had more fun waiting in line together at the Department of Motor Vehicles than most couples have on their honeymoons. We gave each other the same nickname, so there would be no separation between us. We made goals, vows, promises and dinner together. He read books to me, and he did my laundry.
P30
I became one of those annoying people who always say Ciao！Only I was extra annoying, since I would always explain where the word ciao comes from.(If you must know, it's an abbreviation of a phrase used by medieval Venetians as an intimate salutation:Sono il suo schiavo!Meaning:"I am your slave!" )Just speaking these words made me feel sexy and happy.
P34
To find the balance you want. You must keep you feet grounded so firmly on the earth that it's like you have four legs, instead of two.That way you can stay in the world.But you must stop looking at the world through your head.You must look through your heart,instead.That way you will know God.
 
P71 Never forget that once upon a time, in an unguarded moment, you recognized yourself as a friend.
P198
People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants.But a true soul mate is a mirror,the person who shows you everything that is holding you back,the person who birings you to your own attention so you can change your life.A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet,because they tear down your walls and smack you awake.But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah.Too painful.Soul mates,they come into your life just to reveal anther layer of yourself to you ,and then they leave and thank god for it.
 
P234
There is a wonderful old Italian joke about a poor man who goes to church every day and prays before the statue of the great saint begging. " Dear saint, please please please, let me win the lottery."Finally, the exasperated statue comes to life and looks down to the begging man and says " My son, please, please, please buy a ticket."
 
 P397
To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.