all is done

Time comes when I want to write something down. I am not a person with persistence, I give up to life, rarely stood for what I believe. I don't have the courage to be stubborn, I flow with the mainstream. The sad thing is that I don't know where my interest is, I want to be free, but I fear the road to freedom is to bumpy. I chose to stay at university, because I fear reality. I want to indulge in a place where money can be despised, yet I need to rely on it to earn my independence.
Music gives me a break, a space to dodge away, a room to lie in and turn off my brain. What will I be after I finish all I have planned, will I make a new plan, or will I spend my rest of life regretting what I stepped on.
 
My life is like a twisted journey. It started without being noticed, and I try to control where it ends, yet it always manage to slipped away.
Xiao - essay of mood