still in bad time

when you stop caring about what happened out there....what it would become?
I got nothing to do ..I DON'T CARE.
that is not good.I know..but I could do anthing about it to change myself..
movie musuic good food...
when the feeling die..
when I don't see the blue sky..
it is horrible..
I am still ill..no matter how much time I go through..
it completely change me ...
and I stop fighting..