I don't feel happy these days. Like, I think I'm just a crap.I don't feel happy these days. Like, I think I'm just a crap.inchiostro
well, the thing is, we are all craps but in very different ways. I am crap when it comes to food and weights and a crap of intimacy and closeness. Like, I constantly seek for closeness, but as soon as I found it, I would run away. I hate myself just because of just that.
The weird thing is, I used to be the person that can get so easily pleased, from the colors of the leaves changing in the city, or just a cup of Pumpkin Spice latter. But I am not that person anymore. I mean I will still get happy when I drink a PSL, but it is different. IT IS JUST DIFFERENT.
And that's why I've been avoiding texting you back, cuz I don't want to pass this negativiAnd that's why I've been avoiding texting you back, cuz I don't want to pass this negativity to you. I know you're willing to hear me out, but explaining just takes too much energy. ...inchiostro
Oh man, please don't be. No apologies needed here!
I constantly feel the need of having someone around to just simply hear me out here and there. Like, I miss having someone who gets me when I finish a story so I can read it out loud to them. Or someone just to hear me talk.
It doesn't matter if you are listening or give a Fuck about what I say, I just want and need you to be there.
And I am glad you are there. And I know you are there. :)