惊讶 （格尔维•齐耐尔）

惊讶 格尔维•齐耐尔 adieudusk 译 套桨环在暮色中撞击着，一艘划艇浮起 又落回，起伏并滑行。 在一株巨大的桉树下， 一个男孩和一个女孩用脚四处寻摸 那些小小的磨平的石头 可以完美地打水漂。 * 一只狗从寂静的深处吠起。 一只啄木鸟，双击着， 记着时间。我曾在那么多怀抱中睡过。 安慰？或许。可是太多的安慰 会让人无以得慰。 * 我们面前的水几乎动也没动 除了在最浅的呼吸的地方。 对那时的我们来说，活着几乎就像去死。 有一天一种黑暗降临在我和她之间。 等我们醒来，一根山楂树的细枝 立在我们床头的水杯中。 * 在开始有一种寂静。 我们内里的生命安静地生长。 没有什么恐惧。不管 一切怎么会这样，从现在开始 它再也不会存在。 我们喜欢说这话度过长夜 用接近自然的语言的词语， 其他动物还能够说的语言。 * 现在推回遗憾的一生。 它往前拽出欲望的一生。不久记忆 将已经把它自己粘满我们全身。 我们是匆忙地泥土捏造， 粗糙的造型或许对造物主来说 罐子是不是裂了无所谓。 * 今夜在山上满月 面对着圆日。此刻也会是 我们分离或成为整体的一刻。 我们的时间似乎到了——我想我甚至听到了它的停步。 那么为什么我们一直唱到现在，这么久？ 因为那正是打定主意要把我们塑造成的生命。 在我们面前，我们的第一个任务是令人惊讶， 然后，说来更难的，是被惊讶。 Astonishment GALWAY KINNELL Oarlocks knock in the dusk, a rowboat rises and settles, surges and slides. Under a great eucalyptus, a boy and girl feel around with their feet for those small flattish stones so perfect for scudding across the water. * A dog barks from deep in the silence. A woodpecker, double-knocking, keeps time. I have slept in so many arms. Consolation? Probably. But too much consolation may leave one inconsolable. * The water before us has hardly moved except in the shallowest breathing places. For us back then, to live seemed almost to die. One day a darkness fell between her and me. When we woke, a hawthorn sprig stood in the water glass at our bedside. * There is a silence in the beginning. The life within us grows quiet. There is little fear. No matter how all this comes out, from now on it cannot not exist ever again. We liked talking our nights away in words close to the natural language, which most other animals can still speak. * The present pushes back the life of regret. It draws forward the life of desire. Soon memory will have started sticking itself all over us. We were fashioned from clay in a hurry, poor throwing may mean it didn’t matter to the makers if their pots cracked. * On the mountain tonight the full moon faces the full sun. Now could be the moment when we fall apart or we become whole. Our time seems to be up—I think I even hear it stopping. Then why have we kept up the singing for so long? Because that’s the sort of determined creature we are. Before us, our first task is to astonish, and then, harder by far, to be astonished.