my testimony

Recently I am learningthe lesson of quietness, although sometime it feels lonely, but I am very grateful to God's grace and leading, this month I learned more lessons than the past five years . I grew up as an very eccentric person, so I long for getting more love and care, has been in the sea to find true love. Searching dozens of set has been met Jesus that day. His love melted my cold heart, so I found the meaning of life. Oh! His love, long-wide advanced; His love, never betray; His love, fully and without the cost, His love, public water can not extinguish, the flood can not drown; His love, such as lightning split the fire, such as dead of the strong. Oh! I deeply wish follow His footstep all my life, to respond to His love, unshaken, he entrusted to complete, wing-shaped mold into His glory to His holy name. Also grateful to the Lord, I become children of God by accepting Him as Personal Savior, becoming people of household of God. In this warm family, I feel the love and acceptance, are willing to pay my love. I even met my best friend, my spiritual mentor Meiking Mama. God uses her to help me out of the haze of manic-depressive, so I get the full treatment. When I couldn't laugh anymore , her smile warmed my heart; when I was trembling in the corner of sadness, she reached out to me the warmth of her hands; when I intend to completely abandon the brink of despair ,she encouraged me to rely on God's grace to stand again. Oh! Her care and intercession, her encouragement and leadership, she paid the price of time and effort , I always keep in mind, gives me motivation and courage. Perhaps I have been looking for such a friendship, so I unconsciously I look into it the most important relationship in life. I care about her more and more and can not do without her, that she felt suffocated, she can not stand, had the idea of escape. I am also more and more words and actions do not respect her, and friction between us unhappy. However, I have seen the Lord's kindness in all of those trouble. God let me think about how quiet his mind for the co-relationship. Love is giving, love is giving, I feel I can not just arbitrarily according to the line, blindly request, ask twenty-four hours to come to love and to meet my needs. Love her, I'll give her space; love her, I will let her go, love her, I would not expect anything in return; love her, I will not seek my own good; love her, I will more than for her on behalf of the prayer; love her, I will work more with the care of the church with brothers and sisters. I want this love deep in my heart, her free hand to Almighty God, bless her deeply, with hand in hand, running this cross road, and encouraging each other, watch each other, until meet the Lord face to face .

最近正学习安静的功课, 心情虽然有些寂寞,但是我很感谢神的恩典和带领,这一个月我学到的功课比信主五年来得到的还要多。从小我就是一个很孤僻的人，所以一直极度地渴望能得到更多的爱与关怀，一直一直在人海中寻找真爱。寻寻觅觅几十载，一直到那一天遇见了耶稣。他的爱融化了我冰冷的心房，使我找到了今生的意义。哦！他的爱，长阔高深；他的爱，不离不弃；他的爱，完全而无需代价，他的爱，众水不能熄灭，大水不能淹没；他的爱，如电光裂火，如死之坚强。噢！我深愿一生来跟随他的脚步，回应他大爱，矢志不渝，完成他托付，模成他荣形，荣耀他圣名。更感谢主，籍着他成为上帝的儿女，成为神家里的人。在这温暖的大家庭中，我感受到爱与接纳，也愿意付出我的爱。我更是认识我最好的朋友，我的属灵导师。神使用她来帮助我走出躁郁的阴霾，使我得到完全的医治。当我已经完全笑不出来的时候，是她的微笑温暖了我的心；当我在忧伤的角落颤抖时，是她向我伸出了...她温暖的手；当我濒临绝望打算完全放弃的时候，是她鼓励我来依靠神的恩典再次站立。噢！她的关怀和鼓励，她的鼓励与带领，他所付出的代价，我时刻铭记于心，带给我前进的动力与勇气。也许是我一直在寻找这样的友谊，所以我在不知不觉之中以把它看成生活中最重要的关系。我越来越在乎她，越来越离不开她，以至于她感到快要窒息了，她已经受不了，产生了逃避的念头。我也在言语和行为上越来越不尊重她，我们之间发生了摩擦和不快。但从中我也看到主的美意。神让我安静下来思考何为合他心意的关系。爱是付出，爱是给予，我不能只按我的感觉任意而行，一味地索取，要求对方二十四小时地来爱和满足我的需求。爱她，我就给她空间；爱她，我就放手，爱她，我就不求回报；爱她，我就不求自己的益处；爱她，我就多为她代祷；爱她，我就多与她同工关怀教会的兄姐。我要把这份爱深藏在我心中，把她放手交给全能的神，深深地为她祝福，一起携手前进，奔跑这条十假窄路，互相鼓励，互相守望，直到与主面对面。