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来自: Clausia 2007-02-05 17:10:02

  • Clausia

    Clausia 2007-02-05 17:11:50

    Diary entry #2 - 'F--k You' a.k.a. 'the middle finger salute'!

    Hello and welcome to the end of April/mid-May blog/diary/drivel DAA! I know I'm a bit late, but hey, it's not like I'm having a baby or something. April's a busy time for me as I have about half a dozen birthdays in the family so my time was predominantly spent at home up north.

    While back home I went out in Manchester and Liverpool and 'round my old haunts in Deeside and Chester. Chester's the same as always except for loads of new flats being built everywhere and old places being done up, even my old local The Falcon is being refurbished. In Manchester the pace of change is even faster, I can't believe they knocked down the Hacienda! O ne of my earliest memories of going out in Manchester is sneaking in there when I was about 16. In Liverpool the old haunts around Cream were dead, but I fancied this Russian restaurant round the corner which I've wanted to go to for ages and had a great night out, always a great atmosphere in town on a Saturday night - loads of busies around though these days and even more building than Manchester - is this a renaissance for the North?!! In Deeside where I grew up, in North Wales, the town looks great these days, thriving even. I called into the guitar shop Hammersound where I bough my first ever guitar aged 10, nothing much has changed in there, its even the same bloke behind the counter, nice guy, but he wouldn't really recognize me from when I was 10 and used to hassle him to let me play his Fender Telecasters.

    On the way back 'darn sarf' I had a listen to that KT Tunstall album and I really love her version of 'Wonderwall', great song! She was great at the Brit Awards ('f--kin' square' I hear you all yelp, but like I give a shit!), so I whacked on 'Mexicola' by the Queens on repeat and got home a lot quicker.

    Having been away since Christmas, something struck me that 200 miles north of London I'm suddenly not known as 'the Drapes', 'Draper', 'you bender', or whatever the Southerners call me, but I actually already have a name for my new project! 'R Kelly', just like R Kelly - every time I go away I forget about this appendage I've had for years! However, I'll leave the videoing of groupies in hotel rooms to other less celebrated members of the music industry. The reason I'm sharing this useless piece of information with you is because I keep getting asked what I'm going to be called. This has led me to think about the name for this whole thing/project (I'm not really professional enough to call this a project), am I going to call myself me, as in Paul Draper, I always thought my name was shit and for a few years of my life I insisted everybody call me Steve - strange but true - which was because I loved Steve Austin, the bionic man, my mum didn't mind calling me Steve but she always made me wear a T-shirt under my tracksuit which pissed me off - the real Steve Austin had a bare chest under his tracksuit, but never mind... Steve Draper sounds like an ITN reporter and I was only 6 at the time, if you get my drift? So back to names, if I had a name as cool as Trent Reznor, why would you call yourself Nine Inch Nails? I provisionally called these demos 'Monkeys On A Rock' for some weird reason (after watching Stanley Kubrick's 2001 stoned), but then Arctic Monkeys came along and that was out of the window... incidentally their album is the best debut I've heard for a very long time. My favourite band name of all time is a Japanese band called 'The Pete Best' - genius! I'll call myself 'The Paul Draper' - cool, contemporary, its got a 'The' in it. Other names being bandied around to much hilarity in the studio are 'The Internet Stalkers' or 'The Internet Stalker', 'The Paranoid Schizophrenics' - cool, but a bit long in the tooth now, so I guess I'll just have to settle ! for Paul Draper for now. I'm sort of comfortable with it, let's just hope Xfm don't play my record when it comes out as I'll die of shame when they read out my name - it's not exactly Ian Brown is it, or maybe Ian Brown thinks 'shit, I'm not Trent Reznor' and Trent Reznor's sitting there thinking 'wow,'The Paul Draper', what a great name for a band!'...

    Anyway back to this month's sessions... 'Feel Like I Wanna Stay, Feel Like I Wanna Go' is the first track I've attempted with any other musicians playing on it. I first recorded a version of this late last year, it's in 3/4 timing and I had some programmed drums on it, so it sounded a bit Goldfrapp-y in the rhythm track but with a more feminine falsetto added by myself (it's the 80's fan in me!), which sounded kind of cool but sort of static as well with the guitars on it. In fact one of my golden rules in making this album is to stop singing like a girl, it was never intentional , it's just I always write in the key of A (out of laziness), which makes me sound like Jimmy Somerville (no offence Jimmy - I think that song about running away was genius!). So I wanted to see what it would sound like as a band playing it, so I called for the cavalry! Wayne Riches (Skin's drummer) played drums, and Chad and I split bass and guitar duties between us and off we went, jamming all day interrupted by the odd big spliff. 'Drugs!', I hear you say! Oh no, smoking that shit gives you paranoid schizophrenia, that's where the silly band name came from! Great! I'm happy with that one, as I say a bit old hat, but hey, its better than everyone going round saying you're a square, and always good fun when you meet some one new, just have that 'One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest' look in your eye!

    We recorded numerous takes of the backing track during one day's recording, not really with any decent vocals on it, just me shouting away in the background, and as with most recording of backing tracks, the only really important thing is to get a great feel and energy into the playing. As my plan is to try and cover as many of the instruments as I can manage myself, Chad's involvement was to just make it sound like a band really while getting a great drum take, and I'll re-do his parts properly at a later stage - but still a big thanks for him for getting the track working. This is where things gelled for the first time in the project. For the guitar-freaks, we had a Rickenbacker 330 for lead, thru my Fender Deluxe com bo amp ('Revolver'-era Beatles stylee), a Rickenbacker 4001 bass (bought in New York and shipped back here) through a Syd Barrett-era Selmer amp that I bought in Doncaster and had refurbished (as it's 40-odd years old), but sounds great - it's all live going straight to tape.

    So my obsession with loops is over - I gave up trying to combine grooves and rock, that great Kasabian album put my efforts at that sort of thing to shame, so it's back to basics for me, either full electronic, or just a band (but never say never!), which is so difficult when trying to emulate my all time most respected musician - Prince (and Bowie, obviously) and trying to play everything yourself, as I'm a control freak, as anyone whose worked with me will attest to, but unfortunately to make music you have to have some sort of vision and aim for it. Always hopelessly falling short and sounding half-baked, but that's the only way I can do it. Anyway, I first had a stab at writing this song a while ago and then took it with me on a minidisc to America. While I was in Nashville I felt like I had no real understanding of the music scene there and was in two minds as to weather I should stay a few more days or just leave, and then I remembered I had this unfinished idea called 'Feels Like I Wanna Stay', which I dug out and finished there before leaving. So there's no nano-technology going on here, it's simply one of those stay/go songs - we've all heard 'em! Anyway it really rocks (rawks - this is the noughties!) without the electronic drums, and a big thanks to Wayne for bringing this track to life! I can cover the other instruments, although it's been a bit of struggle as my guitar playing has been very poor for a while now.

    We also had a crack at a piano stylee song called 'Annie' - a song I've struggled with for ages, but that's been shelved to be re-recorded again next week, as I need to change the lyrics and chorus (basically everything) 'cos I'm not happy with it, so there's not much to report on that one yet.

    However, what really did work out was a new song called 'Grey House'. It's a song pretty much about my house, which I'd painted grey, walls, skirting boards, grey carpets, the lot, but that was back in my prince obsessed days when I thought if I wrote about a colour it would make me look more interesting than I actually am (Prince and Hendrix had purple, but grey was mine... ALL MINE!). I developed a bit of an OCD obsession with everything grey, so this is my ode to my sadly deluded past. I love this track! Again Wayne covered drums, Chad played bass for purpose s of putting the backing track in, and I played very bad guitar! Although as before, I'm gonna cover all instruments except drums (I've got CDS - crap drummer syndrome, although my finest drumming moment was on 'You, Who Do You Hate?' where I managed to stay in time, in-between big breaks). The instruments were the same as the recording of 'Feels Like I Wanna...', and it took us an afternoon to nail a great 'vibe', as industry pros say. It's an upbeat-y rock track with a nod to Bowie in there for sure, but then pretty much everything I ever did had some sort of Bowie-nod - even the vary-speed vocals I've done sound like sodding 'The Laughing Gnome'.

    Now I've been in two minds for a long time now as to whether I should mention this, but what the f--k, the sympathy vote'll do nicely! I had a bit of a problem with my 'f--k you' finger (that's the middle finger on my left hand to the uninitiated) - it all started at Rockfield Studios in Monmouth when we were recording 'Getting Your Way', an old Mansun track, and I was really getting into playing the bass, but this sort of blister appeared on my left hand middle finger and the more I played the more it kept bleeding... Anyway, to cut a long story short, I went to the hospital near the studio and they cut out a piece of my finger just above the nail, oh joy! The session sort of petered out, and a few days later the doctor called me to inform me the piece of me in a test tube had been analyzed and it was unfortunately malignant, f--kin' great! To cut an even longer story short, I saw a specialist who informed me it was called a Bowenoid Malignancy, and he said it was really unusual for someone my age to have it, and that the usual course of action would be to lob off my finger just below the knuckle. Just perfect, here I am trying to write an album and if I was going to get the 'c' word anywhere; I certainly didn't want this almost farcical version of it on one of the most important parts of a guitarist/songwriter's body. Anyway, the specialist said due to me trying to make this record ('Kleptomania') and being a songwriter, he'd recommend I go for chemotherapy, which I did. I had five goes in this big machine, strapped up in lead in a sealed room and guess what... it did the trick! All I've got now is a manky finger with bit cut out of it. So to everybody who keeps asking me, 'what's up with your hand', well, it wasn't the 'caught me finger in a broken guitar string that went septic' excuse - now you know. After the treatment my finger swelled up like a golf ball for months, and I couldn't really play or write for a very long time, and even now it's still a bit painful to play, but doesn't really bother me.

    So to anyone who's taken the piss out of my guitar playing, f--k you with bells on (nothing like a bit of Northern vitriol!). It takes all my effort to make the string touch the f--king fret without wincing in pain, and that last Mansun tour was f--king agony with bloody puss spouting everywhere, so I hope it explains why the set was short on that tour and the songs on the album were written in weird tunings, or on the piano with my right hand. Belated apologies, but I'm sure you understand, I was just trying to keep on going and work round my comical finger, but ultimately it defeated me. The specialist told me not to be in any stressful situations or it might spread, and as I've said before, the recording sessions of the 'Kleptomania' album were just too stressful for me. Anyway I've never professed to be a great player, it was only ever a tool to write with - Spinal Tap solos were never for me - but each to their own, if you can do 'em, good luck to ya.

    Being deflated about the whole 'c' thing, I set off to the States on my writing trip. I took a mini guitar to write on, a 'Baby Taylor', which was easier to play that a normal-sized guitar. I used alternative tuning and sort of wrote around the finger, and didn't really use it at all - I just sunned it a lot! Anyway, I put on 3 stone on that sodding trip, a third of my body weight! That's right, I only weighed 10 stone before and I went up to 13, but my Fat Elvis period wasn't the ubiquitous spiral into a drink and drug hell - I'd done that already - boring, got the T-shirt etc. (anyway, the best drug is Cortisone [the best gig I ever did, I kept triple jumping the monitors!] and Spanish sleeping tablets [on my writing trip to Puerto Banus]).

    So my Vegas Elvis period really did come from Vegas! It was actually a very un-rock'n'roll burger comparison test. I wanted to see who made the best burger in the whole of the U.S. I tried 'em all - In-N-Out Burger, Jack In The Box... but the clear winner was Denny's! Anyway I'm back to just over 10 stone now - Mick Jagger: eat your waist out! And I'm about as healthy as I can expect to be after pummelling my body for the past decade - it's not in exactly what you'd call great shape, but it's good enough to make a record, except for that one bit. I knew it would happen at some point anyway - I predicted it in my song about the subject.

    The whole US road trip was great though, but I'm not going to tell you too much about that, as I do want to get back into the States at some time! Needless to say I ended up in some sticky situations, like driving 'round Dallas with some bloke in this massive Caddy, toting this silver gun - there is photographic evidence somewhere, but I haven't got it, so I'm sure someone somewhere will try to blackmail me with it at some point down the line... join the queue buddy - people love blackmailing rock'n'rollers! I want to find the blackmailer who secretly filmed us all doing drugs in the band - well that's what you anonymous letter-writers keep telling me... big f--kin' deal, 'rock star does drugs'... wow, I could be a cross between Pete Doherty and David Gray - oh well, it's either that or back to the biscuit factory, as a mate of John Lydon used to tell me!

    Sorry if you're not enjoying this, but these are the first essays I've had to write since school and I just don't really know what to talk about - I just can't talk shit or lie thru my teeth to sell records, I really don't care that much, I'm sick of telling people what my favourite cheese is (Cheshire, obviously... I mean Wensleydale's OK, but it doesn't have the crumbly texture, and my home county cheese of Lancashire is similar in texture but not quite as dry... bollocks, right, back into roc k star bullshit mode! Next thing I'll be telling you is what my favourite colour is... BLUE!).

    I mean, it's not exactly NME interview material, but what can you do! As this is all stream-of-consciousness writing, and I've just mentioned the NME... I should go into some detail about NME, because over the years that's the biggest thing mentioned in all the letters I've got - why NME never liked the band. To put the record straight about NME, when I grew up in Deeside in North Wales, NME was the highlight of the week for me - it's hard to envisage in the age of the Internet, but I relied on NME and Melody Maker to tell me what music to get into, it really was the only source of information on ne w guitar music. When I went to college in Eltham, south east London, it was a revelation to me that you could buy the music press on a Tuesday and not have to wait until Wednesday like back home, so I'd go on the train every Tuesday to the west end and buy NME and Melody Maker, and find all the best gigs for the coming week in and around London, and thought I had a real scoop over my mates back home.

    Anyway it was me who shafted the band's relationship with NME by refusing to do an interview about 'Little Kix', although to be fair, most music critics thought the band was shite anyway! But as I say, I just couldn't do the rock star bullshit thing, my interviews sounded self-obsessed (true!) and miserable (also true!), so I just didn't want to talk about it. I'd already gone along with the whole fiasco for too long and certainly wasn't going to try and big it up or diss it to the NME! But at least I've dipped my toe back into the world of interviews and I've finally done my first post-Mansun interview with which you can check out here. I've also done a Q and A for the fansite which you can check out here, and some questions for the forthcoming site here. It's great that there are fans putting up fansites already, before I've even got music to play you, and thanks so much for the faith - I just hope my music doesn't let you all down. If you want to join in the fun, check out those sites and their forums, where you can meet some other fans of my music that doesn't even exist yet (a bit like being religious, believing in something that doesn't actually exist - you just have faith in it!) - there's also, and I'll keep you posted if any others come onlin e. I know an equipment site is coming, so you'll get an insight into what guitars and amps I'm currently using, if you are that way inclined! There's also an official MySpace page that Dave's set up for m- again, you'll have to have some faith here as there's no music up yet. Next month, hopefully, but please go ahead and join up and spread the word as such (now this f--king blog thing has gone to my head, I really do sound like Ron Hubbard!). It's at , and is not the other comical one that someone set up, and just for the record once again: f--k right off you Internet stalkers!

    I'd also like to mention the passing of a bit of a hero of mine - the great Duncan Ferguson. The only disappointment of my career so far is not to get a mention on Toffeeweb for giving the blues their only Number 1-connected record. I got a load of blue noses in Parr Street Studios in Liverpool, and I subliminally chanted 'Duncan, Duncan, Duncan Ferguson' at t he end of the first Mansun album. As for the campaign for keeping Parr Street open, I'm right behind it. Liverpool shouldn't lose this place - it's great for the city's music scene and just a great studio in general.

    I hope this month's blog has been a decent read (if not, unsubscribe yourself from the mailing list and f--k off!), and I hope I can add something a little different over the months... some video footage and music, so you don't just have to read my drivel. I might even post an entry when you're least expecting it, to be really rock'n'roll, like guerrilla journalism - it's all me arse isn't it really?! Next time hopefully I'll have some music to play you, so it's going to be a challenging month! F--k... what have I let myself in for, there's no going back now, boy?!

  • vivi Anglia

    vivi Anglia (我不介意你恨我。) 2007-02-09 16:20:12


  • vivi Anglia

    vivi Anglia (我不介意你恨我。) 2007-02-09 16:29:18


    News Dated: Wednesday, November 18, 1998

    Hello its Paul, Well, Im not sure what to write this time, so I'll just
    empty out whats been in my brain today, well, firstly, it still wories
    me to this day if I should have put 'The Most to Gain' on 'Attack of the
    Grey Lantern' as the second track, it really should be jammed between
    The Chad Who Loved Me and Mansuns Only Love Song, but it got edited out
    at the last minute (sorry about any spelling by the way, Im disc... well
    you know, anyone who'se ever had a letter from me will vouch for that.
    Also I always thought The Chad Who Loved Me should have been a single,
    as thats my favourite song, OK so its not commercial, but you all know
    our stance on commerciality. Mavis..........Who is Mavis that is what
    most interviewers ask me.....well she/he is a fucking transvestite isn't
    he she, it's probably me but even I'm not sure. Chad and myself have
    written some songs this week for the next album and for the next EP
    which we are hoping to put out in January, we wrote a track called !
    'Church of the Drive thru Elvis' which started out as an idea of Chads
    which I really, really loved, as usual, we will record them in
    chronological order, so we wont hold good songs back for an album,
    theybe out asap. I know a lot of the Mansun Family wanted to know why I
    Care wasn't on SIX, well its the chronology thing, it has a certain
    pureness to it, maybee were stupid and nieave (spelling HELP!!!) by not
    holding tracks back for LP's but we believe in ourselves and dont
    believe in the business part of the music business, we never have and
    never will. Er... what was I talking about, can't remember well anyway
    Serotonin, every year millions of people are diagnosed with depression,
    which is very misunderstood, or are plagued with insomnia, er what time
    is it, fuck......, This manifests itself as chronic fatigue, changes in
    appetite, sleep disturbance, head aches, restlessness, irritability,
    quickness to anger, loss of interest or pleasure in hobbies, and
    feelings of worthlessness and inadequacy. Habitual sleeplessness, night
    after night is classified as insomnia and may take the form of an
    inability to fall asleep when first going to bed or waking during the
    night. Transient episodes of depression and insomnia are part of
    everyday life. Shit, its 4.25am, I need to get out more, cant wait to
    get back out on tour, by the way the Oct tour was the best ever. Anyway,
    I really like the words to Rebel Without A Quilt, they sort of said a
    lot to me at the time, while Im at it on that EP the lead guitar on
    verse 2 of Vision Impaired should of been louder, but thats life. Chads
    written some stuff for our next recording session which he played me
    today, some of it blew me away, theres this piano track which Im
    convinced could be the next single, but we'll get to it asap. Dark Mavis
    (not me in a Dress, but the real life one) showed us the footage from
    Bristol and Brixton today, I must admit I really buzzed on it, you lot,
    i.e. The audience, were the start of the show, fucking rocking, anyway,
    here is a list of the songs were working on at the moment....
    1.My life is my own
    3.A new beginning
    4.The repair man to loose friends and influence no one
    6.what it's like to be hated
    8.An error of judgement
    9.broken man
    10.The trains run on time
    11.I can only dissapoint you
    12.Sountrack for two lovers
    13.Never Again
    14.Shy Boy
    Well there you go, an insight into what Chad and me have been spending
    our time doing. And another thing about EP2 Cathy Pitkin, I can't
    remember who she is, oh yeh, she was FIZZ in Elderado, who I had a crush
    on when I was a kid, well we all know Life is a series of compromises,
    well, we learned the hard way, in verse 2 of Drastic I always sing 'were
    so fuckin plastic, when we do it live', thats because that was the
    original lyric, but when we recorded it, it was gonna be a single
    instead of Wide Open Space, and Wide Open Space was gonna be the B-Side,
    with me..., OK, so fuckin became, were just made of plastic, well it
    never needed to be made instead of fuck and to this day Im fucked off
    about that, and thats how I learned life is a series of fucking
    compromises, well it doesn't have to be and thats why were so stubborn
    about what we do now, never compromise your integrity for some sort of
    gain, its just not wort it, remember, a fuck is always better that a
    made (should that be maid).....weve got alternive versions of The
    Greatest Pain and Moronica fromthose early recording sessions but I
    can't remember how they go....yawn........., fuck I've got to go to
    bed.....I've got a terrible migrane today so I can't get to
    sleep............take it easy...
    Love always to The Mansun Family
    P.S. I believe in my own God........

  • Clausia

    Clausia 2007-02-14 19:15:51

    呵呵,本来就是在收旧货嘛,因为paul表扬KT,我还特意捧场看the devil wears Prada...

  • vivi Anglia

    vivi Anglia (我不介意你恨我。) 2007-05-26 19:10:09




    Paul还提到了切斯特(他居住的地方之一,切斯特是英国著名的古城,古代风貌保持得十分好,不像是现代都市),以及离切斯特不远的曼切斯特,他说道那的一栋建筑被拆除了,而那时他对于曼切斯特最初具有影响的地方,还是那时他16岁是偷偷摸摸跑到曼切斯特的最初印象(如果各位听了mansun的attack of the grey lattern了并去看了看歌词的话,应该知道其中写道Mavis半夜偷偷潜入利物浦,要知道利物浦和曼切斯特离切斯特都很近,所以结论是Mavis写的就是他自己啦~)。


    在复出的给自己名命的问题上,他唠叨了一堆啊,说伦敦有人把他的新碟叫"Draper""the Draper“或是" you bander",而他自己想好的名字是"R Kelly",然后提到小时候人家叫他Steve因为他喜欢生化人Steve Austin,说如果自己叫做"Steve Draper"的话听上去比较像个记者。他曾把自己那些demos叫做'Monkeys On A Rock',但因为如今北极猴子名声在外,所以打算改了。他说他很喜欢一支日本乐队叫"the Pete Best"于是说把自己叫成"the Paul Draper"也不错,这年头的乐队都喜欢在前面加个"the",还在工作室里想了一堆更搞笑的名字如'The Internet Stalkers' 或 'The Internet Stalker', 'The Paranoid Schizophrenics' 之类的,但都太长了,于是不得不选择现在的"Paul Draper",因为不希望自己的名字的被播放出来时会有人说"喔哦!'the Paul Drpaer' "多棒的乐队!……够罗唆了,汗。

    他提到了自己创做的新曲,提到的几首曲子的歌名有Feel Like I wanna Stay, Feel Like I Wanna Go','Feels Like I Wanna Stay','Annie','Grey House','Baby Taylor',说他自己负责了除了鼓以外的绝大部分乐器的演奏,乐器方面提到Rickenbacker 330和Fender Deluxe Reverb 音箱踏板,Rickenbacker 4001 bass,Syd Barrett-era 。他觉得想要效仿那些自己喜欢的艺人很难想Prince还有Bowie。还是虽然新专辑没什么买的很好的希望了,但是自己只能做这个(这么悲观)。

    他说他没办法把吉他弹好——由此他提到自己的中指在创作getting your way那时就出了很严重的问题,得了一种叫Bowenoid Malignancy的病,医生说他这种年龄的人很少有得这种病的。Mansun的最后几场巡演,他都是在忍受着手指不停的出血的巨大疼痛下完成演奏的,这也是为什么他们那时缩短了巡演时间的缘故,希望大家谅解(当然了,还能说什么?)后来在医治期间,他说他的手指肿的像个球一样,很长时间无法写字,直到采取了激光疗法才得以治愈,知道现在演奏是中指仍然会很痛,他说他无法成为杰出的演奏家了,所有吉他弹的很糟糕,希望大家对他的要求不要太苛刻。

    他还提到喝酒与咳药的问题,他说他确实服用一种叫Cortisone的药品,类似兴奋剂之类的东西,那使他在live时能跳得更高,但那不是毒品,毒品会让人精神崩溃,还顺带讽刺了一下 Pete Doherty , David Gray ,说他们才是瘾君子,呵呵。他说自己也曾发胖到13 stones,但现在又瘦回到10stones了(好像是127斤,好轻哦),很健康。现在专心的做着专辑…

    Paul也提到他常听的歌,新专辑有Bloc Party,小猴(actics monkey),The Open,Antony and the Johnsons,Outkast,The Fallout Trust,Arcade Fire, 老的cd他听的还是Neil Young,Beatles 和 The Who, Bowie, The Clash的'London Calling', Prince, The Smiths 以及Lou Reed的'Transformer' 。


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