camus的日记

Actually I think females' desire of manipulation is much stronger than males' at this age. Well, I can remember a girl tried to suggest I should not choose Philosophy as my ambition when I was just enrolled by SYSU, and got so annoyed after I euphemistically rejected it. It was latter in September of last year that the 'melamine milk powder'  had been exposed and I got so indignant that put this remark on my QQ signature: It is our shame to have such a government. Then came a girl's response,' Get out of China. So tired to see your signature everyday.' Now the procedure is pushed further: a girl told me she couldn't bear it any longer after her failure to get me back to normal. And my abnormality is that I don't have a normal girl friends but instead have so many female friends. Well, I don't know the enterprise of femanism has developed to such a extent that a man has to consult each of his female friends before he decides his career, political opinion and social communication.

 

Since I have argued about the first and second issues before. I will not bother to mention them again. This essay is meant for the clarity of some misunderstanding of my social communication. And of course the biggest misundertanding is related to my female friends, or female acquaintances.

 

Come back to the decent moral friendly girl I mentioned in the third case. Soon after we got to know each other, she told me that she had heard my name quite often and tried to collect my information from some other sources because her friend club is strict. That sounded interesting. I admit I had never experienced this kind of censor of friendship and was too curious to think much of it. What came after that is even more amazing. She kept asking me whether I had a girl friend once a few days and urged me to find one in SYSU around me. 'It takes time, and what's more, I am now not that intersted in having a girl friend.' I don't remember how many times I have repeated these words. Her communicative words were very dramatic and I did think if she was well-cultivated, defintely she would because a language master of satire and irony. She called me talent, praised my perfection and flattered so well that It was hard to find her real intent covered so thickly by those dazing and stagy compliments. It turned out that one day I found her QQ number was lost in my list. Almost meanwhile, she showed irrepressable antipathy of the amount of the girls in my list of xiaonei.com. Fantastic, isn't it?

 

Well, this is not the point. The point is whether it is reasonable for me to defend myself. I study ethics. My first concern is not social relationship but principle. I will ask myself these following questions: Does a person have to find a girl friend to get the qualification of social communication?  Does the great amount of a person's heterosexual friends logically entail that he/she will behave immorally in social relationships? Do we have to confess all our privacy and accord with friends in every respect to show our fidelity to friendship?  And what is the most important, are we reasonable to ask our friends to keep silent about our private things in condition that we don't ask him for advice? The answer is clear.

 

All that above is the principle. Now let me show you some reality. People tend to say friends are mutally equal. It is partly right. The fact is that you are equal just when your powers are equal. But that is not necessary the case. We often see such kind of friendship as that in which the two are more like master and slave. Even if the situation is not that extreme, there usually are some cases  in which we can sense a certain kind of inequality. This phenomenon is also common in groups. A captain, a chief male, rank by rank, to the last. There is always a hierarchy esoterically controlling various social relationship, behind which is the power.

 

Honestly, the privacy is not so sacred, and my private things are not so inviolatable. A strong enough power can dismantle my privacy, thumbing through all the secrets inside my head. A weaker could force me to tell by its authority. Even a power a bit stronger than mine may persuade me to speck it out by interest or by deceiving.  Yes. The reason I am so irritated is that all those girls mentioned about have violated the principle of ethics as well as the principle of reality. The reality is that they are not qualified enough to say those words to me.

It is so funny that the third girl said to me that,' you just care about what girls think of you, not only me.' Oh, are you calling for power by this kind of unreasonable cry? Sorry, I bear enough.

 

Finally, let me give some short explanation of the amount of the girls in my list. I wll be frank to say, I do like hot girls. Sometimes I fool wander on xiaonei.com, adding pretty girls whenever it is convenient. But it is far away from some people's imagination that I hook girls everywhere. Actually pretty appearances can attract my eyes and fingers but seldom effect my head, not to mention my heart. I may like a girl easily, but it is hard for me to woo one. And I am not so lascivious as some famous guys in this website. If I want to know a girl, there is never sex involved. For most of my female friends, I am more like a emotion-hotline DJ than any other roles.

 

So much for this topic.